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| ...Still Around.... |
[16 Oct 2005|06:45pm] |
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...i love Him.....
i cant wait until friday .. i wanna go to church
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[15 Oct 2005|12:40pm] |
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He LoVe's Me AgAiN....
Am so HappY ....GosH Man ..Yesterday i was talking to Ivan and he tOld Me He ahh He LoVes Me AgAin.....Am sO HaPpY cUz I caRe So MucH aBout hIm U SeE...RaE He dOes LoVe Me ..Well I thiNk U kNew It ALl aLong ...But ThaNks 4 Not Giving Up On Me ...WelL On Us...... Am sO HaPpy You PeOPle DoNt Kn0w h0w HaPpy I aM I HaVe ThE BiGgEsT SmIle On Its HUGe My DiRtY LittLe SeCreT:::
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[15 Oct 2005|12:39pm] |
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Ill I jUsT FoUnD OuT mY CoUsIn PoPpEd Her CheRRy ...EwWWwwW ShE dId It 9 Times IN 2 Days EwwWwW......YuCky YucKy..EwWWwWwWwWwWw
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| My DiRtY LiTtLe SeCRet |
[13 Oct 2005|04:38pm] |
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..hey people que pasa so yea ..i am not grounded well i am but its like kinda i dont rule my parents anymore...i cant use the fone after 9 i have to be in bed by 10:30 i have to eat breakfast i have to show my mom all my homework that i do ...i have to do my homework in the living room i can only use the computer 4 2 hours....on the weekends i can only go out with my cousin nana and on friday i could go to church my mom did a chores chart it sucks i have to clean every thursday and every night except sat. and sun. i have to do the dishes and let see what else if i dont do this bye bye fone bye bye computer well at least this one cuz my laptop i gave it back to my dad..cuz he didnt know how to punish me to i help him..i think having rules rocks man .. man well the tittle of this shit has nothing to do with this .but anyways ..i love ivan ...and u know what alex yea buddy i do like him and i like him alot and even if he dont wanna come back to me i still like him cuz he is a great person and he hears what i have to say ..and u know what he called back and u know what i love him ..alot and i care about him like crazy and thanks to mY bestfriend rachel i got his friendship back that right my B.F rachel ...cuz u can say all this shit about her she will always be My B.F 4 ever evers...cuz i love her ...UgG am tired ..i gotta go finish my chores am doing laundry...see ya ...kathy LUvs IvaN && Rachel
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| GoiNg BaCk 2 ThE oFfIce |
[11 Oct 2005|08:48pm] |
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GosH MaN As MuCh Has I HaTe To AdMIT iT i NeEd Ms.EsSax WiTh Me I nEeD Her To Be TheRe N TeLl Me RigHt FrOm WrOnG I MeAn I KnOw ThaT Am sTrOnGer Now AnD ThAt I CaN DeAl WiTh My ShIt on My OwN && I CaN But sOmEtime I wAnT SoMEoNe To Be ThErE && TeLl Me RiGhT FRoM WrOnG u KnoW iTs WeIrD...FucK MaN Lo0k At ThIs SHit cUz Of DraMa I HaVe To StaY EvEryDay AfTeR Sko0l 4 NexT WeEk ThAT SUcKs HaS MuCh Has I LovE DraMa SomETimEs It GeTs A PaIn In MY aSs PeRo WhAT CaN i Do ...I Am I TrUE DrAmA QuEeN aNd ThAT Is NoT aBoUt To ChaNgE so.. yeA Am WrItTinG ThiS ..CUZ i tHInK It WiLl Be My lAst EnTry In A LoNg TimE cUz I nEed To FoCUs on My SKo0l WoRk AnD sHIt ..WeLl ..ByEsss ..I LoVe u Rae && JaNet && MariA && KiTtY && ChaVeLy && YeA oK evErYoNE ELSE tHat i dIdnt menTIoN...byE
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| c0m3 bAcK 2 M3eh |
[10 Oct 2005|03:17pm] |
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..i wonder if his done taking ppl away from me cuz of him jorge hates i was thinking today i let jorge with telling him how i felt i think i let him just go because i was scared of what alex might say pero w.e that doesnt matter anymore cuz hes gone..and he left without my feelings well its my little dirty secret it funny i love that song its funny how thinks i broke up with him because of alex and i kinda did...but gosh if u where to hear me talk gosh jorge didnt u learn how to figure out my clues..i guess u didnt......but anyways where was i ...i wanna be single 4 a while.am gonna be one of those woman thats gonna be 47 and its gonna live with her 12 cats great i cant wait ...i give this shit up ..i aint gonna deals with anyones drama...NoT EvEn MY OwN...i WiSh I wAs OuT oF HeRe ..4 The FirsT tIm3 i jUsT waNnA Be wItH My FaMilY I neEd TheM Now...I wAnT a HuG ...I neEd One Or MayBe A Knife ...J.K Or am I??? I d0Nt Kn0w..UgH i wAnNa Go To sLeep And WaKe Up WhEn eVerYtHinG iS PeRfeCt...I am so confuse ..I KnOw WhO I LoVe and ThOse FeElINg HaVeNt ChAnge ..And TheRe NoT GonNa ChAnGe I wAnNa Be WitH Alex Ended Of story sorry rae...thats what i feel and janet sorry pero i dont like this film without sound i dont like feeling like this i just wanna get out of school and call him ..I Love u guys and i hope u can understand...I LOVE jimmY's Hat **inside joke**
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| SeCrEts UnToLd.... |
[09 Oct 2005|06:25pm] |
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| LoVe...I dOnT BeLivE IN It |
[07 Oct 2005|11:51pm] |
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now ..that i have finally been able to let go of u ..i see that all that i have left is a film without sound everytime i remember u all this clips of images come up to my head...and i know that i could erased u from my mind but not from my heart i will always rememeber all the thing u said and all the things u didnt say to me ....but i see if u say that rachel is the one that screwed us over u tell me NoW aLeX If she did ..let me tell u where u today when i was crying 4 u in a car u werent around who was there watching my tears go dowm my face rachel and janet were there telling me everything that u could of neva told me or that at least u didnt want to tell me...its sad to see u go cuz i love u so much in everyway and i think i still do but it wont to be the same u took me 4 granted u thought that u knew me but u didnt BUDDY cuz u dont know anything about me u know me has the weak chick that u can play around with but u know what u aint gonna drag me drowm me to where u r all the way in bottom of this black hole sorry but i like it up here..and i dont need u or at least i think ..cuz i got my friends..and sometimes ...u have to admit when ur wrong ..and i think that ur gonna see one day that u let go of a great girl that i am ...cuz u know what i am a great person i may have my issues here and there but inside i have a great heart a heart that u thought it was 4 playing football and u keep on passing and hitting it against the ground well u know what buddy my friends are the coach and ur OuT oF ThIs GaMe ...I could of loved u 4 eva i could of but u didnt let me love u u said u wanted someone that loved u i did and u didnt get me..now that i have left inside i wish u could come back to me and tell me babe i love u and i want u to be my gurl 4 eva just like we once said but we both know that ur PrIde is too much to admit when ur wrong YES i was the one who said goodbye but u gave me all the right reason too say ....and Now ThAt Ur GoNe AnD ThIs TeARs r running down my face i wonder am the only one crying cuz i know that u dont even think about me i want to belive that u r true and that u love me like i love u i really did belive u ..i did and if u come back i will belive u again but why do that to my self why let other call me ur bitch sometimes u do have to hear what other say ...and i did and i gave u up ..i wish i could take back what i said yesterday and i know if i would of neva said that i would be saying goodnight baby but u know what i feel better knowing that u wont be making me feel down anymore inside of me i wish that u could come back and just tell me that u care alot just that ur scared of telling me ..please come back to me i know i will be hurting my self if i would take u back but i gotta do what my heart says and if u come back i wouldnt care what anyone says i will take u back in a heart beat...cuz u r the only dude that makes me feel all happy inside yes i admit that i like ivan but i told him i wasnt gonna date him cuz u where so deep on my heart..and am not going to what i feel 4 ivan is special and i know y i feel that cuz i felt rejected from u and he treated me right but Ohh god i dunno what to do with just remember love ..this quote will stand alive has long has u want it to.....DoNt U kNow ThAt I LoVe U && AnD alWaYs WilL....
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| NuttiN MucH 2 SaY.... |
[05 Oct 2005|05:33pm] |
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Getting rid Of tHe WaSte Or Is ThiS MoRe LiKe A MoNstEr ThAt I HaVe Attached 2 Me....
anyways oMg today i had lunch WIth Ale it was fun u know it was like 7th grade all over again man i been thinking ..this is it man after this yr..all r memories will be gone all our friends will take there seperate paths and will neva see one again...its gonna suck when that days comes and i have to say goodbye ..to all my friends...awww **sight** rae,janet,maria,cindy,ale,barbara,kathy,jasnery,guelmi,ruby,king,lorena,dayana,ana,corina,dany,laura,micheal,nicky,wendy,lizy,kitty,erika,stephanie,lizable,fracesa,cynthia, and how can i forge the most important person the person that i know i will miss like crazy cuz i love her so much ..i was thinking once we leave this yr. it wont ohh am gonna go see chavely now ..in the morining no more of that she will be gone.....and thats it but omG I Love this Gurl So MUcH .....i care about her so much shes my life and thats it ...i dont know wat am gonna do once i cant see her everyday ....so if u reading chavely i want u to know this ...ur so special to me and to me u mean the world i love u ..ur the fucking coolest shit in the world and even if i treat u like shit i love u so much and no matter how far away u will be away from me i will love u until the day i die..and hopefully that day u will be by my side making fun of my Three Finger forehead..**inside joke**....i wuv u so much..am so sorry if i ever hurt u in anyway is just that am really stupid and i dont know how to treat the people i love ..isnt this said .it seems like it only summer and i was talking to on the ofne and now time has gone bye so fast and now i want it to slow down just beacause now i dont have anytime to just stop and look at u and say yea i know isnt she great in everyway ..i dont care what ppl say about or what anyone says ..am gonna love u the way i love u 4eva it wasnt my fault i didnt ask 4 this it just happens and if other r gonna judge let them judge u know how said i didnt wanna ruin ur rep..i really dont care anymore cuz everyday i worry about what ppl r gonn say ..then there goes a whole day that i was unhappy when i could of been happy with u..ok so what am tryin to say is that i love u ..and even if i dont show it anymore u r like the morning sun rays 4 me when i wake up the thing i think about is Well the NamE cHaveL I think about how much that name is buried in my heart...s00 yea um gurl i love u ...and i will 4 evaz...oMg see am crying already and it only the second semester of schoool wtf but anways ..yea............byessssss
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| LoVe My FrIeNdZzZ |
[04 Oct 2005|07:32pm] |
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yea today was like th funnest day eva..man ok so yea i picked up rachel and janet and we where in my house and then ivan called with Anddy(hottie) && we went to hang out with them in goodlet ..lol Danny was there this dude i use to like and shit...back in the days so we were there and w.e lol anddy carried me lol it was funny he wanted me to come with him and i said no so he just carried me by my feet it was funny i was like anddy stop it...anyways so yea we were there i was trying to ignore ivan cuz he was ignoring me so w.e ...and i was the most time with anddy he is so freakin cool yea got my thong and OucHHH it still hurts..but lol i know his weakness **wink wink** so yea i was like all over him 4 a lil while..then daniel p.s brother of mine came with frankie and mitch and rafy lol funnn.....and the lol funnies shit eva i peed in back of portable...lol it was funny cuz i didnt know that there was a bathroom in goodlet..so this ppl left somewhere and it was like me danny the one with the turn on lips ivan and the dude that calls me krystal..lol funny so yea i was ..like ahh ivan mucho love cuz i do love him .i care alot about him and we hugged it was the most coolest hug eva i loved it....lol and then i got mad or w.e then i just walk away lol Anddy walked us half way and the we see ivan and that dude walking to i run to ivan and give him a hug cuz i love him so much and he walked us the other halfway do yea i love this ppl...lol i dunno i dont have my feelings straight yet but i dont like to be nobodys bitch and up to know i think i have and i dont like it cuz ..i hate noones Hoe...so yea gotta go take a shower....when the fuck is ivan gonna get home 4 i could talk to him....w.e
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| This Poem |
[03 Oct 2005|11:49pm] |
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When a GIRL is quiet,
Millions of things are running in her mind.
When a GIRL is not arguing,
She is thinking deeply.
When a GIRL looks at you with eyes full of
questions,
She is wondering how long you will be
around.
When a GIRL answers "I'm fine" after a
few seconds,
She is not at all fine.
When a GIRL stares at you,
She is wondering why you are lying.
When a GIRL lays on your chest,
She is wishing for you to be hers forever.
When a GIRL calls you everyday,
She is seeking for your attention.
When a GIRL wants to see you everyday,
She wants to be pampered.
When a GIRL says "I love you",
She means it.
When a GIRL says that she can't live
without you,
She has made up her mind that you are
her future.
When a GIRL says "I miss you",
No one in this world can miss you more
than that
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| I wAnNa ExPreSs ThIs FeEling |
[03 Oct 2005|08:10pm] |
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WhErE u LeaD i Will Follow-giLm0Re GirLs |
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oMg I waNnA TAlk to Some1 Ab0ut Me LAteLy I BeEn HeLpIng My FrIenDs OuT aNd JuST HoLdIng IN My OWn DrAmA..I WaNnA JuST SiT And TaLk ..BuT I wAs ThInGiNg WhO I ReAllY WaNnA TaLk To And ThAt IS 1 PeRsON..MaRiA......i dunno i know that we r still friends and that i could talk to her when eva i want but i wanna be like last yr sitting out in the hall way just talking about everything and everybody and even if we werent talking about us we were just talking and she told me right from wrong i dunno i just miss those good old days when i was the one with the messed up life i was the one that didnt know what to do ..Now Is LyK Oh LeT Me HeLp OtHeRs..i JuSt MIss HavInG MY aleXis ArOund ALl The TYme && IT fUnnY H0w She ThInKs I d0Nt NeEd HeR ANyMORE...WhEn InSiDe Am DyIng 4 HeR 2 AsK Me HeY wHaTz Wr0Ng??? So YeA MaYbE I sHoulD Go BacK tO mY TheRaPHy SeCtiOn In CitRus...
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| MaTure YeT...A Lil GiRl |
[03 Oct 2005|06:14pm] |
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yEa The other day when i was talking to essax she told me that she thought of me has the most mature of all my friends cuz like i am always giving ppl advice well in her office and shit and i think i am u know when ppl talk about stuff that i was felt i am always like ohh u say that now but later on u wil notice how stupid u were...and today i notice that even if i act like ohh am so cool and am a big girl but inside am just a normal gurl... and even if i act mature 4 my age i know that am not i couldnt even give me self to the guy i love ...what kinda of a fool am i ..is not that is that am scared that if i do that i will loose him...even if he said it ...i dunno what am i suppose to do am just a 14yr old am just starting life....i dunno what to do ...so yea ohh IN THE 31st MS.CONNELL IS DOING A LIL KIDS DAY >>WE R GOING BACK TO PRE_K yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa am so happy... so yea ...i dunn i think everydays i make discoveries about my self..thats cool..byes
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[02 Oct 2005|04:16pm] |
~*If you love someone, let them go, if they don't
come back to you. . . then they weren't worth loving anywayz!*~
Last night I looked up at the stars
And matched each one with a reason why I love you
I was doing great, but then I ran out of stars
Loving *U* is like breathing...how can i stop
I ran up the door, closed the stairs, said my pajamas, and put on my prayers. Turned off the bed, and hopped into the light, all because you kissed me good night
If yOu ReAlLy LoVe SoMeThInG sEt iT fReE, iF iT cOmEs BaCk iT's YoUrS, iF iT dOeSn'T iT wAs NeVeR MeAnT tO Be
A MiLLi0n WoRDs Would Not Bring You Back, I Kn0w, BecauseI've Tried. Neither Would A Million TeaRs. I Know, BeCause I've Cried
A MeMoRy LaStS 4eVeR NeVeR DoEs it DiE TrUe FrieNdS StAy toGeThEr AnD NeVer SaY GoOdByE
A Person Who Asks A Question Is A Fool For Five Minutes, A Person Who Doesn't Is A Fool Forever ...
Luv Is Wen u Don't Wanna Go 2 Sleep B/cuz Reality Is Better Than A Dream
If you love me like you told me please be careful with my heart you can take it; just don't break it or my world will fall apart
dOn't settLe 4 the oNe yOu Can LiVe wiTh...wAit 4 tHe onE yOu Can't Live WithOut
NoThiN iS mOrE pAiNfuL Then ReALiZiN He MenT eVeRyThiN 2 u,& u MenT nOtHiN 2 HiM
I always knew looking back on the tears would make me laugh,But I never knew looking back on the laughs would make me cryDon't cry because it's over, smile because it happend
Some day u'll cry for me like i cried for you ¤ Some day u'll miss me like i missed you ¤ Some day u'll need me like i needed you ¤ Some day u'll love me, but i wont luv you!
If Your asking if I Need U the answer is 4Ever.. If
Your askin if I'll Leave U the answer is Never..If Yur askin what I value the Answer is U.. if Yur askin if I love U the answer is I do
*4GeT THe TiMeS u WaLKeD By* 4GeT THe TiMeS u MaDe Me CRy* 4GeT THe TiMe u HeLD My HaND *4GeT THe SWeeT THiNGS iF i CaN*I cAn No LoNgEr PrEtEnD*I GoTTa ReMeMBeR NoW uR JuST My FRieND.*
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| confused..Lost.Just aNoTheR Day |
[02 Oct 2005|04:08pm] |
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holy shit alex is back its really cool cuz i missed him being around u know just in general...he still has a very important part in my heart..so yea krystal still hates me ..uGgG maybe i was a lil cruel to her lets just see if she wil forgive me and i dunno so yea my mom wat a bitch i asked her if i could go ova alex and shes like ohh now cuz i dunno wat ur gonna do in his houe omg like thats gonna stop me...please so yea thats pretty much it wats going on right now yea i really shoudl stop using my computer and get some work done around school and shit...lol byesssss
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| JuSt WrITtiNg |
[02 Oct 2005|12:27am] |
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yea alex has been gone 4 a whole week omg i miss him so fucking much is not even funny ..ugg well mean while he was gone i just hang with my friends and shit and just like chilled man this was like the worst week eva ..like in school and stuff but at home i discovered a new friends that i care about alots....and he cares about me...but anyways the dude that lives in back of likes me and thats weird cuz umm i wanna be with alex like i just want alex ....lol Me LuV alex so much ..and i hope he loves me back ...well am not sure...hopefully he does...................ahhh want it to be tomarrow already y is this like this ..uhh um yea ok bye...i will tell u about the hear is voice after a week emotions and shit...
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| mommy leaves |
[26 Sep 2005|04:41pm] |
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ugg my mom is leaving to naples or somewhere up there u dunno and she aint coming back until friday man this shit is messed up i mean i know i dont like to have her around 24/7 but hey man ....its my mommy i love her she wakes me up in the morning and bitches at me everytime i say something stupid she listen to rock with me now that gotta be the mom in the world so yea i guess 4 the next week i will be thinking about my mom and alex i wonder what they are do right now well my mom is gonna leave me with my dad oMfg my father the one that doesnt even care to say hey come eat man this has to be the worste week eva i mean yeai wont have to see her 4 a long time even days omg this feels like am back in 3rd grade and i had my first sleep ova at my cousin i was nerves and scared when my mom left ..i dunno am noy really sure how much i will miss her i just know that coming her without will be like they taken half of the house out and shit...so yea shool was fun i started to take my anti -depi pills again and i was feeling really weird i wouldnt stop shaking it scared me but w.e ..
well see ya
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| sorry ..... |
[25 Sep 2005|10:33pm] |
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opps sorry that i dont write here is just that really use to my blog but am gonna start using this man i promise ...lol no 4 real this time i will
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| disney ....yea what an ass |
[09 Sep 2005|06:17pm] |
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yea am going to disney so it will be so much fun yea sure i dont wanna go with my cousib her preppy friend ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh fuck be back on sunday night
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